Balance of time

Or the balance of me

do you have days where you wish you could just duplicate yourself?

The hubs and I had a conversation about this the other day, more of a bicker really

because at the end of a long day with a toddler I'm cranky and it got the best of me so I pointed out the things that take up his time when he should be with us....like working out, business calls & emails, ect. But what I really should have said was that I miss him and our time together.

cliche to say but there really isn't enough time in the day.

Your relationship with your spouse changes a lot, so does your relationship with yourself.

sometimes I have to remember that before WE there was once ME and that girl deseves a break sometimes.

 all you single moms out there....

I give you all the credit in the world.

I'll leave you with a video of my clever little lady who learned to say "thank you" among some other things :) is she a little smarty or what?

                                       

Bilingual baby - 12 Months old

This little lady amazes me everyday with how quickly she learns new things!

a little different Easter...

I'm not a super religious person, 

but I do want Sienna to grow up knowing Easter is about God not gifts & bunnies.

So instead of going to the mall to take a picture with a creepy bunny, we went to church with a basket of food to get it blessed...a tradition I grew up with and one that has been around for centuries. On Easter morning, we ate our blessed hard boiled eggs, bread & ham. 

Sienna was good in church, surprisingly. She ran up to a family with 2 girls and played with them the whole time, the girl sure isn't shy.

 

That little vintage looking sheep in the basket...it looks like nothing to you...but it means so much to me. I took it from my childhood home in Poland, it was used in every Easter basket in my family since before I even existed. My mom confirmed that it was atleast 30 years old. So glad I got to have it and pass it on to Sienna so she can one day put it in her Easter basket

I hope you all have a wonderful Easter!!

Little talker

Little Miss Sienna has been on a roll learning new words lately, 

we are at almost 30 words!

I wanted to catch some on video because 1. some people don't even believe us that at 12 months old she can say this many and 2. because this blogs purpose was originally meant to be a diary of her everyday happenings and it will be printed for her as a keepsake sooo I'll bore you with a list of her words too :)

Sienna's words at 12 months

Dada

Mama
Charlie

ball

book
car

hi

oh yeah

oh no

oh maaa (oh man)

tann tooo ( thank you)

apple

kaka (kitty kat)

hooochooo (swing in Polish)

duckie

doggie

shoes

eye
oko (eye in Polish)

moon

ptasi (birdie in Polish)

niam niam (word for food, she says this most when shes hungry)

Ania (my sisters name)

all done (aaa daaa)

nie ma (no more in Polish)

there
nana (banana)
ba ba (bye bye)

Video part 2 is coming as well :) Daddy finally caught "tannn tooo" her version of thank you, on video

Unexplainable toddlers

Toddlers are confusing, they are free-willed little boogers who are simultaneously ridiculously adorable and ridiculously challenging. I swear God made them this way, with a balance of annoying and awesome so that they can keep you on your toes just long enough before you break but then melt you into a pile of mush with their sweet little kisses and unexpected hugs.

Sienna is not a brat per say, but sometimes her independence makes her seem that way. She'll try to put on her shoes and if I try to help she gets mad, pushes me away and throws the shoe. I try not to laugh but dang sometimes her wanting to be self sufficient already cracks me up.

Sometimes she'll go to bed without any fuss what.so.ever and sometimes she has the most epic bedtime meltdowns you'd think world war III just started here

Sometimes she'll sleep 8 hours straight and other times shes up screaming after just being down for 30 minutes

Sometimes she'll eat amazingly well, healthy & balanced making mama proud scarfing down brocoli and other days, most days...she wants nothing to do with normal food and would prefer nothing but puffs or a bowl of blueberries. Is it her teeth? is she being stubborn? OH that's right.

 she's a TODDLER. 

Some trips to Target are a breeze, she blissfully sits in the cart saying "hiiiiii" to everyone who passes by and then out of nowhere the fidgety get-me-outta-heres begin and the judgmental eyes of strangers are on you. I'm learning that toddlerhood comes with a lot of those eyes and I'm remembering that at once those eyes were once mine before I knew how it could be and would be. How my perfect sweet angel would start exercising her freedom and will

Oh my toddler girl  ♥

 I don't think I'll ever let this girl out of the house 

when shes a teenager.

Sienna's Party: details & dilemas

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A couple of days before the party I had a meltdown, the weather showed rain & cool temp. 50 people, 9 tollders in my house? wasnt happening..then it went to sunny, then back to rain. I was loosing my mind checking it every 5 mins. Siennas outfit wasnt made for 50 degrees and I had bough a specific dress for the occasion and I wasnt able to wear.Then Jesse, my music guy wasnt able to get off work...now I know these things arent the end of the world but they were to me. I guess once you set expecations its a huge bummer if something you really wanted doesnt pan out...but wait, there is more.

Sienna's nose seemed like it was runny, GREAT?! getting sick for the first time ever a day before her party? all I needed. Luckily, it only lasted a couple of hours then completely went away...but seriously? all that was enough to make me wanna call it quits on this whole thing. I was telling Danny that maybe we should expect an earthquake to at this rate. Thankfully everything fell into place...sun came out..there was no rain and everyone had a great time.

I have a little concerned thinking Sienna would be super freaked out and overwhelmed by everyone but she did great- wasnt shy at all...danced, ran around with her baby friends and had fun and that was enough to make it all worth it.

I have to say, I'm glad we had a photographer at the party because I hardly had time to breathe and there is no way I could have gotten a bunch of good pictures of this fablous day. She sure captured some sweet moments for Sienna to have to look back on one day :)

Little Details & Decorations:

Mason jars for a vintage feel

Vintage distressed sign made by yours truly ;)

Boy-friends of Siennas got yellow ties, cookies, blue shades

Girl-friends got yellow maraccas & girl colored glasses

 

Photoprop Station

Cake banner

fireplace mantle "one year of sunshine" banner

Food labels

This banner now hangs abover her crib :)

Ah so much work to handmake all this stuff,

 but I wouldnt have had it any other way, hubs & I enjoyed spending time together crafting. It made it that much more special.

I tasted it

I was finally brave enough

If you remember THIS gem of a post...

you know that my Mother & Brother -in-law tasted my breastmilk before I did their reaction was absolutely PRICELESS and I'm still laughing about it to this day.

"you could bottle this up and sell it!" 

never gets old.

See, its not that I'm grossed out by my own milk,

 I just have an irrational aversion to warm milk..but today, we are on the last baggie of my frozen milk stash and I thought it was my last chance to try...for a while atleast. So I did.

And - since it was in the process of deforsting, I was able to have it semi- iced 

PERFECT for my weird warm milk phobia HA

Thoughts? 'Sweet nectar' ineed.

last bottle of breast milk,

 so glad I had enough to last her over a year!